||[Sep. 20th, 2006|11:23 pm]
I usually don't have a problem maintaining friendships and understanding those that I consider friends. When I suddenly do have a problem and it becomes alarmingly clear that I have been totally misinterpreting another's actions and friendship level, I get upset. And then when I realize that I've been totally wrong about a person for YEARS, its even more fucked up. |
I have hit a point with someone that I used to consider a friend and care about where its obviously time to neither consider or care any longer because they certianly do not care for me.
Although this (this being me completely misunderstanding someone and my role in their life) is nearly inconcievable to me, I guess we all have to learn sometime. I don't think I'm the best friend or person in the world, and my behavior this last week has proved that I have a painfully bad memory when it comes to my friends but I still truly love my friends and I don't harbor any sort of underlying plot to utterly manipulate and control everyone I surround myself with. I just like to help and learn and enjoy quality human company.
I think anyone who knows me knows that I am bossy and opinionated and a big know it all but I am also alright with people telling me to butt out and let them work things out themselves.
so. I guess its time to let someone drop off the friend list and it seems like they're totally ok with that so I suppose I should just let it happen.